I’m curious…were the facial slaps the lap dancer delivered to you a catalyst of some kind for you and ♀?  I don’t know if I have the personal fortitude to do something like that.  I mean, I’ve spanked a man before but that was to try it out for both of us.  I enjoyed it, as did he, but neither of us got a particular sexual thrill out of it.  I wouldn’t mind doing it again but I don’t know that I’d ever actually get a charge out of it, you know? C.

When we first started exploring my sissification, I would ask ♀ to spank me not because it gave me a sexual thrill, but it was a way to show my desire to be submissive to her. Being dominate, especially physically, doesn’t come naturally to ♀ & the theory was a spanking was an easy way for her to assert herself.

The stripper slapped me because ♀ had told her I wasn’t allowed to get an erection. Brooke was doing the sorts of things lap dancers do and I was getting turned on so she slapped me. If a strange woman walked up and did that it wouldn’t turn me on, but in the context that it happened, it was hot.

My point is context is everything. I want ♀ to dominate me. I crave it. I want to be owned by her. I want her to possess my mind and body; to use me and abuse me as she sees fit. I live to give her pleasure, make her happy and satisfy her desires. In other words, I am her bitch and a well timed slap helps reinforce that.

My pain threshold is not particularly high, and being hurt by her probably isn’t going to get me excited, but if I’m already turned on then being spanked or slapped or bitten or pinched or scratched or…really does add to the pleasure. It seems to sharpen the experience, brings it more in focus. Does that make sense? She doesn’t do it all the time (we all need variety), but I love knowing that she can hurt me anytime she wants.

♀ insists that physically dominating me isn’t a huge turn on for her. She does it to give me pleasure, but I’m not sure if that’s entirely true. The picture from last weeks HNT post was taken after a long (and rough) love making session and she certainly seemed to be enjoying herself. She also looked darn pleased with her handiwork when she took that picture.

Cheers,

sss